Simulacra.

One of the driving forces when approaching this fantastic undertaking offered by our dear Friends of the Orphan Signs!

But first: Whose history should be represented? This became my mantra: whose history should be represented, whose history should be represented, whose history

You get the picture…

Perhaps herstory.

That's it!
No. Too broad.

My story?
No. Too short.

"That's it," I thought, "represent every single body".

I was losing focus.

So finally, Lindsey of the Friends of the Orphan Signs intervened, urging me to work as an artist would and create.

Simple. Painfully simple.

I realized I was first approaching this project as one might do for a business, thinking too...broadly!

Things are as they are because things were as they were.

This became my brand-new mantra. Then I remembered a question posed by author and experimental filmmaker Gerry Fialka: why do we ignore the hidden effects of things we invent? More importantly, however, was a simple phrase Fialka opened the lecture with to prime the audience for the aforementioned inquiry: effects precede causes.

Reason backwards.

That's it. I would reason backwards, thinking, perhaps, the designers for the original sign put some hidden meaning in their work. And then I saw it: a heart. And then a feeling: Love.

Why do we ignore the hidden effects of things we invent?

"Those people who designed that original sign knew what we'd need in the future," I cried out, "love."

...perhaps I was reaching a bit, but it feels good, right? Because we just wouldn't ignore the hidden effects of things we invent, I declared!

For the West facing sign, I discovered the 'O' in "Motel" is a circumpunct, or a circle with a dot in the middle, which is an Egyptian symbol meaning both wholeness and the Sun, and can also be interpreted in the Pythagorean context as "Union of Opposites," or more simply: "All is One".

Furthermore, I am insinuating a sentiment of Spatial author and philosopher Henri Lefebvre, who said: "I enjoy my life on the center and the periphery." One might interpret this in tandem with the symbol of the Monad, that in order for a person to become center, they must first harmonize with the periphery/people/community.

I then did a costume change for 'tel' of "Motel," and unavoidably sifted out three hearts, with each heart taking on a unique shape determined by its former state.

Next, for the East facing sign, I used a piece from a personal collection, though by more accident than design, I realized I'd chosen a piece with a similar shape to both the Monad and the reader board “Lollipop Men/Ladies”: circle with a dot (or opening) in the middle.

People as Art.

Finally, regarding the abundance of space on either side of the piece on the East facing sign, there are three ways to interpret it: physical space of New Mexico's land/skyscapes; this project of the Friends of the Orphan Signs being a spatial one; and finally, the piece is framed as a door might be, and thus: this is an open door in space to become one with All.

bell hooks quotes Thomas Merton at the beginning of Chapter 13 of her book "All About Love":

"Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone–we find it with another."

bell hooks said:

"[O]ur collective fear of death is a dis-ease (sic) of the heart. Love is the only cure. Many people approach death with despair because they realize they have not lived their lives as they wanted to. They never found their 'true selves' or they never found the love their hearts longed to know. Sometimes, facing death they offer themselves the love they did not offer for most of their lives. They give themselves acceptance, the unconditional love that is the core of self-love."

- Xxànn/Shawn Χρυσόστομος Smith Newcomm,
October 18th, 2024

Process:

FINAL RISOGRAPH PRINTS: